and now i am nothing

by timothy dreary

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i got a better head
started writing this last year, started recording in may
can finally say it's done and i'm proud

dedicated to everyone past and present

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released July 27, 2017

all songs written and produced by Kody Laskowski

album artwork by Marisa Casini

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Track Name: home
tell me have you got the stuff
tell me have you lost your touch
disappear into the background
seems like you're only alive when i come around

does it feel like home?

tell me have you had enough
tell me do you still feel love
reappear only to apologize
i can see it in your eyes your hearts gone comatose

does it feel like home?

are you scared?
full of apathy
wasted everything
are you scared?

tell me what can i do
tell me to give up i can't get through to you
it's in the atmosphere it aches inside my bones
full of fear
fear of the unknown

does it feel like home
Track Name: 13
stare at the ceiling until my eyes get sore
count to ten and realize we lost ourselves twenty minutes ago
one being one heart simultaneously beating
i pray we don't fall apart
i pray we don't fall apart

the black cat has lost its charm
i'm lost without you
was it an accident or an act of god?
i thank the stardust that grew you

stay here sleeping in my bed
lie there peaceful
look at the clock but there's no rush there's nothing better to do
there's no better sensation than feeling your heartbeat
i pray we don't fall apart
i pray that you never leave

the black cat has lost its charm
i'm lost without you
was it an accident or an act of god?
i thank the stardust that grew you

do i thank the big bang?
from its ashes we all grew
i count the stars every night
i hope you look up too
Track Name: two loose ends
can we get up i need some space to breathe
it's all too much and all at once
suffocating me
let's take a walk
can i have something to hold on to?
remind me of my humanity
i don't know what i need

we don't need time to make it count
we don't need time just hanging around

nothing is real but i need to find an escape
is it pessimistic to find comfort in an empty grave?
is there a reason i can't find the will to fight
whatever happens i'll blame it on the moon
the stars are maligned and they spell out my doom

we don't need time to make it count
we don't need time just hanging around

let's take a walk outside
let's find a place to hide
i've stopped looking for answers
they've always lead me to loose ends
Track Name: holy hell!!!
holy hell what happened to you?
you used to be so dangerous so brave
now you lie awake making arrangements for an early grave
the setbacks the whiplash the car crash
now you wish you never drove at all
the best friends, the ex friends, you miss them?
no you don't
no you don't care at all

maybe there's a chance to see this through
maybe we could help save you

holy hell what happened to you?
you used to be a dreamer now a fact is just a fact
used to fill journals up with memories
now you only record what you lack
the day dreams the wasted time
fills you up with anxiety
it feels like you lost your mind
like you don't remember me

maybe there's a chance to see this through
maybe we could help save you
Track Name: holy ghost
you sleep with a crucifix on your bedside
i speak though i don't know wrong from right
i'm keep singing if you don't talk just listen
i'll stick around if that's what you want

i'm strung out
caught up in obligation
i fear i'm nowhere near where i wanna be
talk myself down until i feel like i'm nothing
please stick around and try to calm my anxiety

i see your holy ghost drifting away from me
i used to be so much
and now i'm nothing
(i'm holding on to hope but my faith is shaking)
Track Name: wait
i used to wait up patiently waiting
for a change of pace
now i stay up late
hoping for nothing
floating in space

hey wait
i thought we could talk
i used to spend all my days
praying to god knows what that i fall asleep at the wheel

i walk a long road on my on
but your with me in my mind
we used to count the stars
now you're there waiting
floating in space

hey wait
i thought we could talk
i used to spend all my days
praying to god knows what that i fall asleep at the wheel